If only.

Every beat adds tension and tension only brings emotion.

I’ve never heard you scream so loud and mean it. Ribbons of violence don’t commonly appear in such great numbers. The words “I can’t” only tell me one thing: winter starts now.

There will be no Autumn. Trees will die and take their leaves and we’ll be left with echoes and bare branches.

If memory serves me right.

I miss how your knuckles reminded me of those huge white rocks that jut out of the middle of rivers. You know, those ones that we used to sit and talk on?

I know you remember. Now shut up and kiss me like you mean it (like how you used to).

Where in the world?

The trees began taking off their winter coats. It’s finally spring. Where have you been this past year? I know we failed to meet. I know I broke that promise. But that’s my fault.

So does that mean the rest was your fault?

I’m glad you’re back; spring is in the air. And what comes after… another winter?

You only wish you knew.

I’ve finally come to realize that you are exceptional. The sad part is that you are your only exception.

I bought you a bouquet. Flowers symbolize love, right? (and death)

Why does everything you touch turn lifeless? Except me?

Limelight

I move with great intricacy. We can only move so much, you know, before we start to break down.  I’m unstoppable. You can’t break me down.

“I once was lost but now am found.” I marvel upon the sound of these words. How can simple letters be placed together to mean so much?

I understand.

Recurrence

Lately, it seems each dream ends the same way:

I stand motionless as a wave of water cascades from what seems to be an infinity foot tall ceiling. As the first drops touch my skin, I begin spinning and spinning– and as I’m twirling around in this waterfall I close my eyes and see lights of all colors flash before me. As these colors start to take forms of familiar faces, an un-named color takes the shape of one person I can’t say I’ve encountered yet.

Ready set go.

It’s time to pack our things and move on. Do you see that light shining on the horizon? It’s a new world full of chances we’ve only dreamt of taking. The last time I felt this free, you had me tied to the ground. Dear era, I’m writing to say good bye.

, then I’ve moved on.

I had a dream today: We were both holding hands walking along the street. It was mid Autumn, but everything felt so warm and alive. Each leaf began to change its color before my eyes, and when watching them I noticed a simple heart nailed to a tree stump.

I awoke tired this morning, probably because I wasn’t sleeping. I was with you.

If you’ve moved on.

Lying implies such painful feelings. If you fell in love with another boy, why wouldn’t you tell me? I knew we weren’t together, but we were something, or rather, I felt that we were something. You know that wrenching feeling you get in your stomach when things go terribly wrong? I hate it.

No thanks.

When it’s only a few simple words you seem so close. This distance separates us for more than miles, you know..

I miss how we were before November. All I had to give thanks for last year was that I kept my mouth shut for once in my life. Too bad you can’t say the same. Good bye.